最后的这一天

2010年的最后一天
虽然有种种不愉快的事 但 还是有很多开心的事
很庆幸的 我熬过来了；走出了黑暗 往阳光前进
万言的感激 那些对我不离不弃的人
在这向他们致敬！
我会试着改变 不会太固执 不会太任性。

祝大家新年快乐！

Woots. Today is the last day of 2010!! What's ur plan of the day? Im spending this big day at home with my family for the first time!! I am just too tired and lazy to go out!! Although I have been through happiness and sadness in year 2010, I am really grateful to all the awesome people around me!! I'm really contented to what I have now. Hope year twenty eleven will be a great year to everyone!! >3

Taiwan Trip!

在这9天的行程里 我看见了一户团结的家庭
呵护彼此 团结一致
体谅对方 没有任何怨言
父母的期望不高 只希望孩子们及格，考上poly就好。
他们好像没有什么压力 每天都过得很开心
有他们的地方 就能听到他们的笑声
跟他们在一起 很舒服、很开心。

放天灯！ 希望愿望都能实现！

“驼驼” 第一次骑马！ 我的白马王子在那里？？

Im so in love with the blue sea!!


SNOW ICE!!　下雪了～　好冷～


HELLO KITTY RESTAURANT!!! 下次一定要吃到！
Lastly, I love my family! >3

人心难测

今天让我看到的 人心险恶
带着的 都是恶魔的面具。

天真的我 一直以为朋友都要真心对待 但其实很多时候 是要随机应变。
真的 日久见人心。

颠倒是非、谎言、心计 谁说的才是真话？那又为什么要这么做？有什么资格改变一个人的性格？
是不是 说不动听的话才是真正的朋友？
是不是 对朋友的期许 对方就要对号入座？
人的思想都不同。
你不会知道对方是不是好人，是不是发自内心 还是有心计的人？
很多事其实很简单 但人就是会把它看得很复杂。
让自己难受，不开心 带着‘防’的心态对待身边的人。何苦呢？

义海豪情

“但愿人长久，千里共蝉娟”

未来是什么？以后会发生什么事？世界是公平的吗？
所有的事 其实上天已经安排好了。

一个坚强的女孩 成了众人最怕的女人
为了找爸爸，为了存活
每每接触的是染上毒瘾的人
看见的是人们为了吸毒品而搞到家散人亡、伤害自己、甚至牺牲自己的性命。
所以她这一生最真恨的是毒品。
日后发现自己的家人是卖毒品的；一心只想烧整个毒品，关掉所有的店。
是真的没有选择才走上歪路的吗？
其实 只是看自己要不要而已。

山不转路转 路不转人转 人不转水相逢。
被亲人背叛、与一些人不合 最后的收场就是死。
再坚强的女孩 也有最脆弱的一面
庆幸遇到了生命中最重要的生死之交
“生要见人、死要见尸”
带着这个信念，不顾一切地保护彼此
最后到人生的终点时 彼此约好了在天堂见面
当一个人到了尽头，最惨的不是离别 而是脑海里一片空白，没有任何回忆。

一段中国人的故事、在大战的时期
如何生存、如何熬过那黑暗的日期，每每期待阳光的出现。
做事问心无愧、坚持自己的信念、在良知道德上的抉择、义气
还有非一般的爱情故事。
真的是很棒很棒的港剧 我很喜欢。

"忍"=刀扎在心里是很痛 但是无论有多痛 还是要忍。
“熬过了一关，还会有另一关”

盼望

總盼望從黑暗走出來的日子,前面是等待迎接我們的晨光.

虚假

有些事 发生了就是发生了
伤害了 就是伤害了
即时伤口愈合 也会留下伤痕

不解。
带着面具 是为了保护自己 还是在逃避？
有时大笑 是真的开心还是在掩饰自己的不开心？

虚情假意。
一些动作 、一些话 超越了一个人的限制。
表现出的虚假在无意间有一些些讨厌自己。

面具人

每个人都仿佛有着属于自己的面具
在末一个地方 在面对不同的人 都会以不同的心态来对待他人
有些人表面上和你有说有笑 但却在背后捅你一刀
有些人就很自然的把自己的情绪写在脸上
有些人却说话很直接，不知道自己的话已伤了对方

虚伪与做作 只是一念之间
或许为了引起他人的注意 把自己关起来
或许太被呵护 经不起他人无意的笑话
或许是在乎 所以更介意他人的眼光

引起众人的注意 有必要吗？
面子 有这么的重要吗？

人是为了自己　而不是为了别人而活
面子是自己个给的 脸是自己丢的
这是我一直相信的。
至今我才懂 我们所说的话 对朋友的影响是这么的大

得到他人的关心 是件很温馨的事
即使是一个小小的问候 就会很感动

山不转路转 路不转人转 人不转心转
如果不踏出那一步
如果不主动一点
那所谓的墙就不会倒

因为这样 让我差一点不认识自己
因为这样 让我很不舒服
因为这样 让我知道 原来不是每个人都会付出了真心地对待他人

这就是真正的世界吗？
表面上的虚假 带着专署的面具
是我太单纯了吗？

'家就是避风港' 里头的含义我这才明白
那个时候才是真正的自己

更爱自己、让自己好过一些
就让时间冲淡一切吧.

Something that never get through my mind

2 years ago, I was dying to slim down and I begun to go on diet. This was my diet plan-NO PORK, NO RICE, NO FRIED FOOD, NO SUGARY DRINKS AND NO CANDIES. Many people around me were strongly against it as they thought I was torturing myself,but I insisted. I got scolded or nagged for almost everyday.With so many arrows pointing at me, I still stuck to my plans and not listened to anyone. I see no reasons why I can't go on a diet? As in what's wrong with dieting? I was just wanting to slim down and looked as fabulous as the models. Perhaps I got the wrong concept that skinny means perfect but no one seemed to explain to me.Is this being rebellious or wilful ? I dont know. That's how they think of me.After so long, I got used to it anyway. I must say that standing alone is tough and tiring,but it had thought me to be more brave and independent girl.I have been telling myself to be strong and stick to my plans if I am doing the right thing. At that time,there was only one person who agreed with me and I was very grateful to her for being so supportive.Her words and concerns were so much appreciated that until now I still remember what she had said.

Just recently, I started exercising and doing workouts every thrice a week so I told myself to stop my diet. Eating every food with moderation,exercising regularly and eat half bowl of rice each day are my plans to keep myself in shape now though I will still say no to fast food. Many friends around me are shocked when they knew I have not been eating Mcdonalds, KFC and ice cream etc for more than 2 years. Haha. How exaggerating!

Back to my topic, what I don't understand was that when my sister said that she wanted to slim down,mom told her to kick the habit of eating rice! I was astonished as she scolded me for not eating rice when I was on a diet but now she's asking my sister to stop eating rice! After that, I found out that those people who had scolded me for going on a diet are having diet now! They have stopped eating rice,fried food and going on a similar diet plan that I had before. How funny! I really don't understand. They aren't playing their parts as a role model at all then why should I listen to them?

The lucky one.

It's been a while since I last blog. I have been busy studying for O levels and poly work. Thank god that these stressful days are coming to the end and I managed to overcome it amusingly. With the effects of exercising and eating dark chocos everyday really helps to release stress but indulging in a Mocha and a sandwich at a cafe is still the best! Hahah. Two more papers to go and I will be free! As in I have got more free time to watch hk series on weekends! Yuppie!

*
Last week I started the language course(French and Japanese) and apparently it didnt work well for me. Although these languages are interesting , I cant cope with them.It's really stressful to learn ABCs in both Japanese and french in a day.Therefore, not to make my life miserable, I have decided to change the course to a marketing course as I still feel comfortable with figures instead of a brand new language. Thank you Mr.Y for helping me with regard to changing of this course. I must say that I am a lucky girl! I am soo grateful to these wonderful people around me! LOVE THEM SO MUCH. I'm getting to miss a couple of people already.

没有答案

以为找到了将心比心的知己
以为找到了小小的依靠
以为友情之间没有所谓的计较

在遇到小小的挫折时 你让她安心
在想与人聊时 你踏出了那一步
在心情最低弱时 你给她希望
后来发现原来你厌倦了她的唠叨

知道的那一刻 只有惊讶
原来事实就是如此的残酷
但为什么会说出来？

表面上的虚假
每个人仿佛都有一个属于自己的面具
什么时候是真正的自己 有时就连自己都搞不清楚

有人说 自爱很重要
很多事就是没有为什么。

Life goes on..

所有一切 好像一场梦
从梦中醒后 所有的事都归回原来的样子
地球依然转动 时间还是不停的转
只是 生活中少了一个人

也像是常在电视看到的
争夺财产 六亲不认
“溏心风暴”。

PS.我会好好的 不辜负大家的厚爱.

Goodbye,Ahgong

虽然迟了一步
虽然没有留下任何遗言
也许这是大家唯一的遗憾
但至少知道您是平静地离我们而去
那就够了。

想起有人说过
年长者想要在家里离开 不是悲观 因为没有这种事 因为这就是人生…

这件事 告诉了我
时间不留人。
人生就是这么的无常。
真的要好好珍惜所有人。

这件事 我看到了
妈妈的伟大。
她的体谅 她的关心 是不要求任何回报的
这么辛苦地打点琐碎的事
付出了这么多 却时常被爸爸骂
不管自己累不累都不在乎 还是把重心放在爸爸身上
只要大家平安、乖乖听话的她
真的辛苦了…

PS. you will be missed, my beloved ah gong.

Life is fragile.

“ 人生无常、珍惜眼见人”
耳熟能详的句子 常常在港剧的出现的字眼
看了这么多戏 听了无数次
都从未能体会句子真正的含义。

知道人生无常要珍惜眼见人 但背后真正的意思是什么？
以前都把关心当成烦恼
不听话 不吃饭 不谅解

然而 今天，我体会到了。

人 始终会跑到终点
人 真的不知道下一秒会发生什么事
人生真的有几个十年？ 没有人知道。
很多事都是出乎意料的 也很突然的

现在只希望奇迹能出现。

♥ I realized...

认识了新朋友 反而更珍惜好朋友。

不管多久见一次面
不管有没有话题聊
不管同样的话题重负多少次
都不会觉得闷或无聊

只珍惜彼此的陪伴
那就够了…

A MUST TRY DARK CHOCO TART!

Woots! Im happy today! Met my friends at Bishan early in the morning and headed to East Coast Park for cycling! I always wanted to learn how to ride a bike but didnt get a chance to do so.Thanks to this group of friends who asked me to tag along today! I thought I can learn how to cycle like finally but the mission failed eventually- I couldn't balance myself.It's certainly not easy and I must say that the boys have no patient at all! They gave up on teaching me about half an hour later and changed the bike to two-seats bicycle instead.But still, Im grateful to them for being so thoughtful.((:
\I felt so good after cycling! I must really learn how to ride a bike soon!! It's so fun and riding along the beach side is just perfect!!

After that I went home for a bathe and met my family at town! We headed to Takashimaya basement and saw a fair was going on! I think it's a chocolates fair!! Woohoo~ I was being attracted by a stall which sells french chocolates and the promoter introduced me to their famous DARK CHOCOLATE TART which costs $8.20 per slice.I hesitated initially as it's real expensive but it's DARK CHOCO! How could I resist the temptation of dark chocolates?! Hehe. So I bought it and I never regret it though as IT'S HEAVENLY DELICIOUS! Not exaggerating. >3

PS. Today's a sinful day. Im so going to drag myself up tmr morning and go jogging!



`This is the chocolate tart!! yum yum~

JAY CHOU's TEE

OMG!! Elara bought me this Jay chou tee!! Love her so much! >3

Indecisive

很多时候 没办法自己做决定
很多时候 搞不懂很多事情
所谓的解铃还须系领人 还真是难

不知道为什么不知道
不知道所做的决定是对还是错
不知道该做什么才能找到自己

讨厌这种
不知道 不确定 不了解
的种种感觉…

什么时候才能脱离这不安全感？
什么时候才能意识到生存的意义？
什么时候才能知道自己所不知道的？

Thoughts

不负众望.
有时掩饰自己的不开心
换来他人的欣慰
或许也是最珍贵的感动。

PS.因为你相信 让我有勇气坚持

Satisfaction

Yuppie~ I'm so satisfied with my results!
I was shocked when I saw my GPA; it's way beyond my expectation and unbelievable!! woohoo~

I had a lil indulgence of Macaroons.. Yummy~

I'm contented

I feel secure and happy with them around!! >3

It has been awhile since we met as a clique but still short of two ladies. It's mid-autumn festival today and we gathered at Brandon's place for our favorite steamboat!! Woots. Gathering at a round table with a hotpot on a windy day while catching up with one another was AWESOME!! We had so much fun and laughter! oh and I finished A BOWL OF RICE surprisingly.Ever since I started dieting, I had either had half a bowl of rice or sometimes not eating any. I always had a thinking that rice makes me fat but now as I begin to do workouts and jog every alternative days, I have stopped dieting.Well, I know I should have stopped long ago as people around me have been worried for me.): Hope I'm not late though.
Anyway,I received compliments from both beryl's and brandon's mama that Im skinny!! Haha! Although many people have been telling me that I am skinny enough and stopped me from dieting, I just believe in myself. Now my target is to keep myself in shape! Oh and I realized I didn't had a bite of mooncake on this day!!

PS.No more complaints but showing gratitude to everyone.(:

默默

有人说 　巧克力
那甜甜的滋味
溶化到嘴里的幸福感觉
就是爱情的味道。
但心理的门依然是关着的…
喜欢独自逛街
习惯一个人吃饭
有时思考着 发生过的种种事
那自由自在的时光
我很享受。
或许是没有勇气
或许就差那一点点的感觉
每个决定
都会想到后果 会不会伤到身边的人。
这些顾虑 却让我无法踏出那一步…
顺其自然吧～
直到拥有那把钥匙的人出现…

PS.This might not be the best way but it's the only way I can think of.It might be hurtful but sometimes that's how cruel reality is.

黑巧克力

30之后的叔叔
才意识到生存的意义 才知道自己的目标
在这之前 独自一人去摸索 尝试各种行业
知道方向不对时 再调整回来
没有人给与他意见 没有人告诉他的优缺点
最终靠的是自己的战斗力 找到了自己

一直在鼓励的我和姐 追求自己理想的他
不管他人的看法
坚持自己的想法
相信自己的理念
从不后悔的精神
背后的故事 现在我才知道。

迷路时 　　　有人告诉我方向
难过时　 　　有人聆听我的心声
想放弃时 　　有人鼓励着我 要我坚持
迷失自己时 　有人告诉我真正的自己

现在正在寻找自己的我
有人带领着

我很幸福也很幸运
像是吃黑巧克力时
苦苦的 甜甜的滋味...

PS.真的谢谢。

Happy Birthday B!

Woots! Met up the girls again!! It was B's 18th birthday yesterday and we had a short celebration with her. We headed to Vivo City for xiao long bao and bought her a strawberry tart from fruit paradise.I totally forgotten that she doesn't like strawberries! Eventually, ZY was the one who finished the tart! Haha. She just love desserts a lot a lot. After that, we settled down at a open space. Ber told us that she hopes our friendship will last long and the only way to maintain our friendship is to meet up often. I couldn't agree more though and I was a lil touched when she said that.=)
Afterall, I had a great time with them! Love them so much! >3

PS. I have to say that I am glad to have known them and I will definitely treasure this friendship.





`B gave me this bar of chocos that her dad bought for her! She just hates dark chocos but i LOVE it! ^_^

Sleepless nights

Does anyone knows how to cure short term insomnia?
I CAN'T SLEEP LATELY! As always,I'll suffer from insomnia on exam periods and this is annoying.When I closed my eyes, my mind never stop functioning.Many many things go through my mind;I just couldn't get into my dreams. I did do some researches with regard to curing of sleeping disorder and tried several methods(drinking warm milk before going to bed, listening to smooth music, doing exercises in the morning and breathe slowly) but to no avail. If only the worst comes to the worst, I will consume some sleeping pills as given by a doctor.I know I cannot rely on sleeping pills but what to do?

Last night, I didn't get a wink of sleep. Only till this morning around 7am when my sister prepared herself to school, I fell into my dreams like finally but a short one. I woke up at 10am as I had a paper at 2.30pm. Gosh.I had only 3 hours of sleep or even less than that!! Apparently, I didn't do well for the paper even though I was well prepared.Most of my answers were different from my class. Ah~
Sigh.It's over though. I had done my very best for this paper.Hope my results will turn out to be good. * Keeping my fingers crossed.

Alright, shall prepare for last paper tmr!!

最熟悉的

如果那天决定留多一年 今天的我会是怎样的呢？
如果那天我坚持 今天的我会比较开心吗？

老师节那天 回到了母校
走过每个熟悉的角落 勾起了很多的回忆
每天早上到操场集合
课间休息时去的餐厅
放学后去的Junction 8。

很怀念中学的日子。
很想念当年的我们。
还有最挂念的老师们。

大家兴奋的
把准备好的礼物 献给最尊敬的老师们
把说不出的感激 写在卡片上。
和老师们聊天时 ，不仅有种莫名的亲切感.
好久不见。

如果那天没有得到支持，我会有勇气吗？
如果那天我不顾一切，是一时的冲动还是对事太执著？
如果那天我没有那个念头， 眼泪还是会时不时不受控制地掉下来吗？

PS. I ♥ U ALL!!>3

Desserts at 10pm!

Met up my girlfriends last Thursday and headed to Aston for dinner at Cathay! Then we walked all the way to Somerset as we thought of settling down at a cafe. Eventually, we went to Scape escape for this Champagne grape Ice with red beans and lychee mochi! It's real good! I couldn't remember then name of this desserts shop though but it's a nice place to chill. Before we walked off, I found out that these ice snowflakes are LOW in FATS! HAHAHA! Thank god.




The next day, I headed to JW's place for BBQ! It has been awhile since we last met though. I missed them so much!
Undoubtedly, I had eaten more than I need! The food that his mom prepared for us were good and JW baked OREO cheesecakes and a few cups of Tiramisu for everyone! They were AWESOME! Not exaggerating, This was my FIRST time eating OREO CHEESECAKE!! JW must be very honoured!! haha! I had a slice of it and two bites of Tiramisu! Oh my goodness.It was just heavenly delicious!! Looking forward to our next gathering! >3

PS.I am going to jog for an hour for next two days!@@
Two more weeks to exams and yet I am still unprepared. I have told myself not to be affected by those unpleasant things that had happened recently and work hard for the upcoming exams.I will get back to books real soon.
`updated on 23 August 2010.

重复的话题 累不累？

一个专题 就像地球一样
不停的转 最终还是会回到原点…
虽然是过去事 但还是被挖出来讲…

对你来说 尊重是什么？
一个言听计从的小孩 没有主见的 什么都无所谓的 就是尊重吗？
很多时候 其实只是想表达自己的意见而已。

有人说 尊重其实不是一个问题
最重要是清楚知道自己要的是什么 然后勇敢地实现它。
或许是角度的不同 这有点各人自扫门前雪的心态…
但 实事是这样吗？

在大人的世界里是怎样的呢？
无法谅解的是 争吵能解决所谓的问题吗？
我想 信任是很重要。

看着憔悴的你 不尽感到心酸而自己又不能做什么⋯ 我们回到童年的时光好不好？
Perhaps I shouldn't care too much; so long I receive allowance daily..

不是第一次

每个人都有自己的想法，很多事都是见仁见的。
所做的决定都有一定的理由，没有得到他人的认同 是对还是错？
或许根本没有答案。
爱、有时是一种负担。
当决定了一件事时，知道对方一定不同意 还是坚持
为了自己，选者了先斩后奏
找到对的时间聊时 最终还是以争吵为收场…

当人在生气时，自然而然就失去理智；
不知道所说的话很伤，不知道自己无法控制的动手了…
把关心当成烦恼、人都是这样的。
因为担心 因为在乎 因为不信任 因为害怕失去这个家
眼泪不受控制的掉了下来
无论做多少的解释 辩护自己 都没有用…
就因为太爱对方。

`因为不是第一次大吵 因为不懂得体谅 所以选者了谎言 离开了一下下…

`我真是幸福的女孩～ ^_^

A day out with the girls!

Woohoo. So happy to see the girls again! It has been awhile since we last met! Really miss them so much!
The same old B who never fail to make us laugh with her aunty actions and dramatic expressions! ZY is still as mature as before but she tends to b more concern on her appearance now! She has learnt to put on make-ups and wear high-heels! Let's guess what's next? wearing a dress? And lastly,R is still eating more than she needs and never grow fat! annoying* Haha. but she's pretty and crazy as always lah! uh~Love them!>3

Ps. Thank you,R's BF for driving us home!(:

可不可以回到当初的我们；
那段每每都在一起的日子。

满满的感激，
无法形容的感觉。
很感动的；
没有预料的。
像是看到了雨后的彩虹。
遇见你，我只能说
我是
LUCKY GIRL! ^3^

An indescribable feeling that will never be forgotten

A surprised friend requested in FB and an unexpected message received.O-M-G!
At the moment, I felt an indescribable feeling which made my tears welled up my eyes.I was out of words.I thought I have been forgotten..
Many things flashed on my mind then; the times when I was feeling low, when I need encouragements and when I felt loneliness and emptiness.You've been there supporting me,encouraging and listening to me.Ever since I confided in u, I seemed to be relying on u.I have got a lot of things to share with u! However,as time passes,I told myself that I must be independent and stay strong! One day I'd like to tell u that i can really excel in all areas like u said and share with u my dreams(im still figuring out though..) when I return to school! Now,whenever I feel like giving up on studying, I tend to recall ur encouragements and indeed helps me pull through the obstacles. (: I am really glad to have u around and i will never let u down! >3

Love,
SH

PS. Uh! And I never forget scoring A1 for Chinese! You will get to see it next year on e day O levels result release!(;

Hectic life.

Woohoo. It has been a long time since I watched and finished a drama within a day! I am not exaggerating-Letting my mind rest and not worried for my studies for a time being is AWESOME! Even my sister said I have turned into bonkers, am I? Indeed, ever since I was preparing for N levels, I didn't touch on any dramas but books. She has been seeing me preparing for my exams, stress over my studies and not watching my favourite dramas.I was once used to be obsessed in HongKong series but not now. I think it was a waste of time including sleeping. I used to sleep for like 5 hours and then prepared myself to school. However, I realised how important sleeping or even taking a nap is since I stepped into poly.I spend an hour plus travel to and fro school each day and wake up at 6am every morning.Then stay half of the day in school,listening to lecturers and preparing presentation.Life now is hectic. Now I am trying to go to bed before 12am, if not I will be a zombie the next day in school. I also try not to stay in school for too late as I really hate to sit in bus for an hour.It's real awful.

PS. I'm hanging there,still..

Nodame Cantabile - The Finale

为了爱情 为了想和喜欢的人同台演出
不尽牺牲自我 努力往理想迈进
不管做了无数字的练习也无法说服老师让她参加比赛
就因为感觉错了…
用心去体会歌曲所描述的 了解作曲人背后的故事 才能表达歌曲所要传达的讯息 才能感动他人。
这就是成功者背后的秘密。

因为对自己没有信心、没有勇气 所以选者了逃避
回到了最初的快乐 与小朋友的时光
但爱情的力量 让她勇敢了面对 踏出了那一步
不断地自我磨炼 让梦想实现…

我想不管是对音乐的热诚 还是爱情的执着
相信自己，认清自己的人生目标，活得更充实，人生才有意义。
不管是做任何事、对人 都拿出自己最真诚的心去对待的，或许会过得快乐一些…

这部戏 真的让人想恋爱的感觉~ ^3^

过眼云烟

既然不相信 就让它随风而去.
已经解释了.

Stupid sister belittles me

She knows that I am struggling with my studies and instead of giving me encouragements, she looks down on me. She thinks that I wont be able to do well on my exams.She forbids me to go nowhere but stay at home to study during the study breaks. That's like so crazy. Mama was there while we are talking about this and yet she remained silence-I have used to it though.Oh well. Indeed,I am facing difficulties on the subjects i am studying now.They are so tough that sometimes i thought of giving up but someone has asked me to hang on there..And so, I have been telling myself that not to disappoint those who has been there for me, do them proud. I am hanging there,still.

I kept silence and did a lil reflection after that.Then I recalled back when I had the good old times.There's always a person who has been there for me whenever i am feeling low.When I feel like giving up or even stress, i will always think of her. Her words really gave me the power to persevere and the courage to make everything possible.She wants me to be happy and not to think too much,i am working towards it.(:
I am grateful for everything she had done for me. Without her, i might have given up in my studies.
Aww.. i miss her so much. >3

好朋友。

5年后
当你回头一看
站在那里的朋友 将会是你永远的好朋友。
-show luo

Stress & tiredness.

It's 12.06am now and yes, I am burning mid-night oil! Circuit analysis test is on monday and yet I am still not prepared!@@ I am still struggling on most of the topics and I can't do the questions on self-practice exercise!! Arggh!!!! T_T

PS. I'm not picky. Im just more conscious on food. Pls dont force me to eat those food that I dont. I appreciate ur concerns.

是你给我了勇气

所以我选择相信。

PS. I hate liars!

The winner stands alone.

Forcing myself to smile on a moody day is tough...

No title.

把关心当成烦恼，人都是这样的。
大吵或许是难免的。只是无法谅解而已。

Doramon?!

A person who never fails to make me laugh-the Drama Queen! >3

感动捏~

WOW!! D bought me a box of MERSI chocos and Ricola!! She surprised me by putting them into my bag without me knowing! As I was upset over my Chinese oral, she bought these things to cheer me up!!Another friend gave me a choco too which he bought from the Japanese food fair in Tampines! And SH also bought me a box of HERSHEY chocos a month ago!! That time I was indignant over a friend of mine who betrayed me. So sweet of them! Thank you so much! Your concerns is really appreciated!!LOVE YOU GUYS! >3

Although we have known each other for 3 months plus, I can feel that you guys really treasure each time we spent together. Also,I know you have been trying real hard to understand me and finding topics to talk with me. I really appreciated everything that you have done.However, please excuse me for being inferior and quiet. I am not a chatty and cheerful person as you expected.I am indeed a calm and a person who is difficult to understand as you said.In fact I have difficulty in adapting this new environment until now. I just need more time. (:

PS. ML, I am working towards it;loving and protecting myself by not thinking too much.(: And I miss those days talking to you! Aww.. Really much appreciated for everything!
(I wonder if u would read my blog).X)

Expect the unexpected.

Screwed my chinese oral up! I panicked once I sat in front of the examiners and my mind turned totally blank! Whatever I had studied were all gone.I'm certainly not a good speaker! I have been expecting topic with regard to global warming but it wasnt! It turned out to be a technology topic!! My god~ I think Im gonna to get MERIT again!@@

PS Gonna work double hard and get A1!! I'm not going to let you down anymore!

I'm barely hanging on there,still.

你知道吗?

如果你懂我，你就会知道为什么我这么爱吃巧克力...

Looking for

Someone I can confide in..
I seemed to be relying on you..

Nostalgic memories

I miss my clique.
I miss those days watching movies on every weekends and hanging around at j8 with the girls after school everyday. I miss those gossips and fun we had. I miss the time we had spent together.Although we are separated from different poly and tried to meet up once a week, it's still tough to fix in sometimes. However, I am glad that we are still keeping in touch. (:
I also miss the days talking to you,be it my troubles or some random stuff. You just makes me feel safe and a lil secure.Although u did most of the talking, I will never forget what u had said. You seemed to know me well and could somehow read my mind which really surprised me. I am really grateful for everything.Frankly,without u,I might have given up in my studies.

Alright,a lil short post here and back to my studies. tata.

Didnt sleep for the whole night.

Good old times.

我还坚持着。
还在寻找自己、学习如何更爱自己。
还有快乐的定义。
你的话我都记得；影响力真的很大。
我以你为榜样。

STRESS

11 days to O levels Chinese oral.
2 months to Main Exams.
3 months to O Levels.
Plus quizzes,new topics and homework in between. I am feeling anxiety now.Can I manage and excel in all of them?

Mi-siu Mi-siu

I am super exhausted after school especially on Monday and Wed when lessons start at 9am. I have to wake up early in the morning at 6am and leave house at 7.20am.@@ Apparently, I need more time to adapt to my new environment,the system and also blend in with my classmates. Most of them are still strangers to me though some of them are really nice people. X) I might look cold to most of them-we are just like living in the different world but Im sorry to say that this is the way I am,perhaps to new faces and environment. As time passes,we will get to know each other better.(:
Anyway, school is going to start at 2pm tmr as writoral's tr has postponed the lessons to friday afternoon! Dammit.

Alright! I am going to bed early today!

PS.O-m-g.Today is the last day of June which means I am left with 14 days to my chinese oral!!! I am so not prepared seriously!!

Going to R house for steamboat on friday!! But I am so afraid of doggy!! >.< HOW?!

不想忘记的感觉

很巧的 在地铁遇到了你
半年没见了，
即惊讶又开心。
聊起来时 ，
有种说不出的亲切感，
有说不完的话。
谢谢老师的关心。

PS 老师，保重哦…下次会回校看看！
因为有你们的关心，再这么不开心也得让自己开心.

一个无心的笑话可能是别人的死穴

被取笑的感觉…
小小的伤到 但更令我哑口无言。
只回了一句“不好意思，我笑不出。”
我喜欢就好。

因为这样 不知不觉地隐藏了自己。
因为不信任 也选择不相信。
因为虚假 不尽会害怕。
我才懂，这就是你所谓的不简单。

PS.我还在学习如何更爱自己…

Perseverance

WOOTS.I PASSED MY PHYSICS TERM TEST SURPRISINGLY!
It's a miracle,isnt it? Ohmygod.It's not just a border line pass; I did pretty well as compared to the first test which I had failed badly.=D * a clap on my shoulder. Yuppie~
However, things are getting tougher and tougher. I couldnt catch up with the lessons after the 2 weeks of break and I am facing difficultly in understanding certain subjs now.As the main exams and quizzes are coming up and O LEVELS are round the corner,I am feeling tight and breathless. I want a break.In fact I need a break but I cant afford to slow down my pace as the days are getting nearer and nearer..Studying on weekends is driving me crazy too...

PS.I still remember ur words and it's so much appreciated.=) Without u, I might have given up.

Bottom of my heart

Care Less

GOSH.I HAVE NO MOOD TO STUDY!!!
HOW?!?!?!?!
AND
I FEEL SUPER GUILTY AFTER EATING 3 PIECES OF FRIED FOOD FOR DINNER..

PS.I hate the feeling of empty & insecure.

Appreciated.

Thank you for lending me a listening ears.
Thank you for ur concerns and supports.
Thank you for leading me throughout my life.

No faith.

Perhaps this is the way you show your concerns towards me.

不断地提醒自己-“解释后，不相信就画下句号。”

I must love myself.

It has been awhile since I last blog.Well,I am making full use of my breaks now. Although I have got assignments to complete, prepare for O levels and go back school to do my lap worksheet, i just love being accompanied by friends and family.

I enjoyed watching soccer matches with B & P for 2 hours.
I was relieved after talking to you via SMS.
I was delighted when I went shopping with mama and Q.
I love visiting my grandparents every Sunday.
I am trying real hard to bond with my poly friends.
I have had a good rest.

BUT, school's going to reopen in a few days.NOooooo.

原来这才是真正的你

因为你的离开,原谅了你的欺骗.
因为毕了业,原谅了你的心机.
也因为你的真诚,我选择相信.
但很多时候、很多事情不知道总比知道好.
虽然不是好朋友,但也是真心对待的朋友.
我好像错了..
很难过地问了自己
这五年的友情算什么？

出门可以带一把尺但请不要得寸进尺。
我还能相信朋友吗？

感触良多的一首歌

Awesome.

My beloved clique.
It has been a while since we met. Everyone is busy with their poly work and finally we managed to meet up last friday. We had super lots of fun,laughter and cam-whoring.I was delighted.I never felt that for a very long time.It's awesome.

当你的谎言被刺破时
是什么感觉？
一直以来都用真心对待每个人
但每一次你的欺骗、你的小动作 都很明显。
你的虚伪使我不时掩饰了自己…
FORGIVE & FORGET；
但你最后还是说谎了。

解释后，不相信就画下句号。

原来
回应就是无礼、
有时言听计从就是忘恩负义…
只能无言以对，视而不见。

“如果每个人的内心，都像是锁了很多秘密的仓库。
如果幸运的话，在你一生中，你会碰到几个人握有可以打开你内心仓库的钥匙。
但很多人终其一生，内心的仓库却始终未曾被开启。”
-第一次的亲密接触

我很幸运，遇见了你。
你过得好吗？

曾经我也告诉了自己
“不可以让关心我的人担心、让看好我的人失望…”
但我做到了吗？

I want to sleep.

IM SUFFERING FROM INSOMNIA!!! @@
breathing difficulty.

懂了

你要我学新的东西的理由，
解领还须系领人的含义，
人生的目标。
是你教会了我，
怎样克服压力；
人生的意义；
对他人诚恳；
坚持不懈的精神；
还有“快乐” 这两个字。
就因为酱…我会加油…

那一秒 眼泪掉了
看到他对这么的努力
不顾一切、坚持到底
就为了站在舞台，表演给大家看-这是他的梦想，从小的志愿、人生的目标。
不管他人的闲言闲语
他还是坚持地把歌唱好 就为了要打动所有听他唱歌的人。
很棒。

Perseverance is the key to success

O-M-G.. It has been a month in poly and im still not used to it;be it the route of my brand new life or my new friends.I still cant believe that I AM IN AN ENGINEERING COURSE either.. It's indeed tough as what one of my teachers had told me.I have been facing numbers and gates,struggling during lessons time and trying to stay extremely focus for every lectures.

Franky,I never look forward to school. I have been dragging myself to school every single days;waking up at 6.30am almost every morning and leave my house one and a half hour before lessons begins.Also, one hour of bus ride to and fro school is killing me-reading novels is the best and only thing to kill time.

That's what makes me super tired everyday.I know I shouldnt be complaining as nothing can be done by now..I am holding there tight..But I just cant stop myself for being mood-less..

Time heals everything.

* TERM TEST IS IN A WEEK TIME..

EXHAUSTED EXHAUSTED EXHAUSTED...@_@

不要以为……

你说你懂我
但其实
你一点都不懂。
我就是这么的难以琢磨…

不能改变环境 就改变心境-适者生存

你看到的我 不是真正的我
很多时候都在隐藏着很多的自己
什么时候才是真正的自己呢？

或许我需要很长的时间来适应…
或许习惯了之间的生活；对他们的依赖…

请不要再尝试了解我 就像你说的可能会被电惨哦… 有点反感了…

Without you, I might have given up...

在打工之前的感觉回来了…
与那时侯的感觉一样…
而答案 只有你知道…

解领还须系领人？
我不懂…

人必须学会并且习惯转变

在人生的每一个阶段
转变成适合那个阶段的样子，
这是必须、必然的。-流转之年

我发现 我对你们有多依赖…

Im SUPER EXHAUSTED! I've no mood in doing anything..though I've got piles of homework waiting for me... :( ZEN ME BAN?!

PS少了你们的高中三年，我过得不若从前愉快…

难以琢磨
冷漠无情
原来 这就是我...


我想 我是被你吓到了..

孤僻的习惯

人与人之间的沟通很重要⋯

不喜欢做任何解释
不懂得自我表达
累时 不喜欢说话

原来这样会让人有不舒服的感觉…
或许给彼此多点时间吧…

以你为榜样

从你身上学到了
真心对待每个人⋯^_^

Tiring

Im mentally and physically exhausted!! I have to wake up extremely early in the morning and take an hour bus to school. I should have appealed to the nearest poly in the first place. !@#$% I think im suffering from insomnia these few days again.. I cant sleep at nights.Most probably it's because Im feeling the pressure;I have got piles of work not done and i still have to prepare for o levels..Gosh.. Pimples are popping out and dark circles are evolving..=S How? I WANT TO SLEEP~

Oh well,although this is the second week of school, im still not use to the route of my new life. I have been eating chocolates before heading to school.Anyway, I realised that I must be very self-discipline in doing self-revision or even do practices of the work..Like for mathematics, we have to practice the questions ourselves in order to be prefect.No teachers is going to mark for us..Moreover,We have only two hours for tutorial in a week which is totally not enough.This is stressful.
Worse still for physics,I just cant get my hands on the experiences; connecting wires and analyze the circuit are driving me crazy seriously..Im certainly not a physics person;it's my weakest subject.. Im wondering why i m posted to this course mann..

`Im presenting the introduction of my research journal tmr. Good luck to me! ^_^
PS.you're right. I have to put in more effort than others but it's really tiring..

超人不会飞，周杰伦

'拯救地球好累 虽然有些疲惫但我
还是会
不要问我哭过了没， 因为超人不能留眼泪'

现在才了解了
为什么一致以来你跟我说
学新的东西
去认识新朋友⋯
谢谢。^_^

咪修 咪修

I'M MISSING YOU GUYS ALREADY & secondary school days!! @@