Excited

I cant wait to meet SQ they all on the last day of 2009 & my clique for steamboat on the first day of 2010!! WOOTS.

休假期

要出国 拿3-4天的休假期
但因要学另个语言 经理已牵就我了
而且也只做到三月
这么得寸进尺
我做不到。

起初是大家要我延长合约
现在为了出国反而怪我为何要继续工作…
什么跟什么~

Endure

Oh well.My extension of contract is approved by HR-working 5 days per week,an hour more per day and 2 days off instead of one. I've somewhat regretted but still I will endure till the end. ^_^

想放弃时 我会回想你们给我的鼓励
我会适应环境
我会坚持 即使有多累还是不开心
都会尽力把它做好-有始有终。

sob

B!! NOW I KNOW HOW U FEEL!!
I feel like crying today.Like what u had said, working is indeed stressful and we have to abide people who are unreasonable and people who tend to throw tantrums at anyone.uh~ Perhaps this is how e working life is like.

I miss school.

I miss my clique.

STUDY IS THE BEST AFTER ALL.

工作

原来这就是工作的世界。
有好人
有难相处的
有背叛者
有把情绪宣泄在他人身上的
我想 惟有忍耐才能持续-这是个很重要的课题。

`通过一个管道来发泄自己的情绪

我绝对不会。

是逃避还是害怕

能感觉你想亲近
然而不知为何
我会退后。

Avatar

Met JD,Jus,Bran&A yesterday after my work and caught 'Avatar' at Lido.We watched the 3D version and it was great! ^_^ Now then I know why there are so many people looking for biology books. Oh and Christmas is just 3 days away but I cant go countdown as I have got work till 10pm on that day.Also Im on morning shift the following day. Aww.. that's sad,isnt it? No x'mas~
These few days are going to be hectic at my workplace;it's going to be packed like sardines especially on the last day of the promotion. oh man, I cant imagine it. >~<

不舒服

之前不继续的原因 是因为工作后没有时间做自己的事-整个人就真的很累
打算合约完后就学新的东西 但是…不行了
所以当我决定继续的那天 就不会离职

而今天…
你问我工作如何
你问我是不是不想做
你问我为什么这么累
你的话 让我思考更让我不舒服
是因为你说如果不想继续就在家做小姐
是因为你说常换工作会变成一种习惯（问题是我的合约本来就是年尾结束）
是因为你说的话

PS 为什么他人总是比你们更了解？

No offence.

"You are so different as compared with your sister."
Ahha. People(especially my sister's friends) have been telling this to me. I'd take that as a compliment.yeah! haha! (thick skin) Anyway, I have been working hard on this; be it the character or attitude and apparently I have made it.Woohoo.Partly because Im not those who would spend e entire day just to watch shows and do nothing. I would turn blank and empty-I feel scared. Although I feel the same sometimes, I would crave chocolates.(I know by craving choco will not help me in anything besides gaining my weight.) And so, Im still learning how to control my emotions.

PS.Ah.My manager is too kind that I do not want to reject her with regard to extension of my contract.

Finally

JD & J came to visit me at my workplace today! rather surprised though. Then we had lunch together!! ^_^ It was like finally we have met up for a meal.ahha. We had a short chat and knew that Bran has just came back from Taiwan and JB has gone to Taiwan! Whoa. None of them told me that they are going Taiwan so that I can get them to buy something from there. Hee. Anyway, we shall meet up for steamboat!! >_<

心态

这种环境里
唯有调整心态
才能走出这个框框
什么才是正确的心态呢？

谢谢你的相信 让我更懂得调整心态

谢谢你的信任 让我更了解自己
谢谢你的在那里 让我的所有的问号有了答案

累了

Im SOO exhausted and mood less today!! Work is soo tiring.I dont feel like smiling nor crying.
Nonetheless, I feel happy after my work as JD and J happened to be at town around late evening!! Met up with them for a while and had a short but nice chat.It has been a long time since we last met up. (I miss those days when we had steamboat at JB's place. ) We shall meet up soon,guys! for a dinner or sth. =D Alright, shall go to bed early today. Im working on afternoon shift tmr. =S

不會懂。

loathe.

With regard to my extension of contract, I have decided to extend it.However, now mama has changed her mind.She asked me not to extend alr as she has planned to go aboard on new year(well, she always gives empty promises) and so Im in the dilemma again. Aww.. I cant make up my mind mann. I hate myself for not being able to make decision.

本来已决定 但你让我动摇
然而选择继续后 你却要我不做

言听计从
不是不听 只是不会要去不想去的地方 反而被你说成不喜欢跟你们出门，很奇怪
然而也请不要拿我与她比较 因为真的不同

不喜欢被逼的感觉 I need a break.
这样 开心的起来吗 ？

寂寞在路上

Predestined

Ohmy. I had a bad dream last night. I dreamt that I scored 26 or 30 points for O levels. Oh mann. Hope this dream will not come true.

what if it's real? I dont know.I dare not imagine any scenes.Im afraid that it comes true.Im afraid that I might not get the result as I expected. >~<

不敢向前一步

在乎的不是工作的形体
而是如果继续
是否能找到我一直在寻找的答案⋯

之前就是因为听话
让我失去了学习的机会也错过了在校外的乐趣⋯

lil surprise.

Omg. I was so surprised when my ah gu& BY visited me at my work place. Ahha. On the same day, B visited me too! ^_^ They were looking for me; walking back and forth at my work place as it is really huge.I was delighted and lil touchy.hee.

Alright, there's a promotion going on at my work place.It begins today till 27 dec.It's going to be a hectic month.Hope everything would go on smoothly.

`Had another chocolates just now.Love chocolates.

PS. B, get a job soon!!

Extend it or not?

I just realised that I had finished my last piece of chocolates! :( Aww.. Shall buy more the next time when I get my pay.hee.
Alright, mama has been asking me to extend my contract.She has got her reasons though but honestly,I really dont want to continue working. Partly because there are too much things to memorise; be it the author's name, the name of the books and also the location of books in every departments.It's rather stressful and Im really exhausted-I just cant want to end my contract! Although I explained to her why I dont wanna work(just as Im really tired,I thought of having fun next year.I have already missed so much things.I dont wanna spend the rest of my holiday just to work. I want to learn other things which I dont know ; I need to find my interest), she insisted.There were of cos again little arguments and miscommunication inbetween; perhaps the probs lies on me again. I remained silent.
Actually, I know that there is no harm in extending my contract.I dont have to stay at home so often either.But if u ask me if im happy working there, frankly im not though my colleagues are really nice people.There is no motivation and I dont know what I am working for. Well,I need more time to think about it. Any suggestion?

感觉依然如此

不吃的　　　　一定要吃
不想继续做的　一定要做
不解。
想法　一直都不被认同
无法自主？
问题问题问题问题问题问题问题问题？？？？？
固执　叛逆　自私　任性　自我为中心
害怕 这种感觉…
怎么办？

念头

累 对你来说 是不想出门的理由
肌肉痛 对你来说 是个借口
不懂 真的不懂。
或许 工作也不错 至少不会遇到争吵…

昨天 心情很复杂
电影院里 都是大家的笑声
在一旁 没有微笑 沉默着 不舒服的感觉让眼泪不听使唤的流下来…
调整心态 的决是个很大的学问
巧克力 巧克力 巧克力 巧克力 巧克力~

还不是个有自信的女生
再坚强 遇到挫折、难受时 还是需要聊
然而又不想麻烦他人
或许 应该习惯孤僻
才能告诉你
我很好
我很开心
请不要担心

Rest.

Woohoo. 30 more days of working. I cant wait to end my current work and get my salary so that I can buy the things I want!! yay! ^_^ Btw I caught Mulan the movie yesterday with my colleagues. The movie was so violent and boring.I dont really like it. :S oh yes, my manager asked me if I'd like to extend my contract yesterday. I said no.ahha. Nonetheless, mama wants me to continue working even though i told her that im really tired.whatever.

Today is my off day! I have spent the entire day at home. The feeling is so good.ahha. It has been a while since the last I give myself a good break and do nothing like today.Although I dont like to spend a day just to watch show as I hate it when my mind turns blank, Im really tired and my body is aching. I need to rest. I have just finished reading my novel and watched a few episodes of the latest hk series 'Beyond The Realm Of Conscience'. It's a pretty nice show.It's about people in the palace who r calculative and they would use nasty methods to get what they want.
Alright, Im working in the afternoon tmr. Shall get to bed early. >_<

JD: 'Perseverance is the key to succeed'